What a beautiful mess I’m in…sings my radio as I drive through my sleepy town and wait it’s only noon here. But, I agree with this song. Life get’s so messy, it has to be beautiful!? As I take a look around my own personal life, it’s pretty chaotic, confusing, stressful and downright messy; but it has its beautiful moments—looking at the stars with my niece as I help her find the dippers and talking about how small we really are compared to the whole universe or laughing at movie or even just watching the sun set on another day here. Then I look at the news, seems the whole world is in the same boat as me…they’re just trying to stay afloat and enjoy what little beauty they get. We live in a world right now that is teetering on its own destruction. It makes me scared for my students in my class, they’re only starting out and it seems the world they’re going to grow up in is struggling to get by on a daily basis…makes me worry about when I start bringing my own children into this world. It’s true I can look at the news and probably find myself find myself in tears, over the horrors that are happening around me; but (there’s always a BUT) then if I take a few moments I can find the beauty too. I think of all the little things that make me laugh during the day—and there’s a ton. They range from laughing at my parents to my students to even myself or just running into some unusual kindness in everyday life. Sitting down with my colleagues to talk about their marriages, children, and even what books are out there to read; I find all those “mundane” things kinda beautiful. Sure, the world we live in now seems to be falling to pieces; but what makes it bearable is my faith, family, friends, and yes, good food—a simple definition would be LOVE. It’s true despite all the craziness out there, you’ll always find love.
It’s true, I may not know where I want to go with my life; but for right now, I’m kinda of happy with it. I’ve got some really great people in my life and for the most part, I find myself laughing and smiling throughout the day. So yeah, I’m going to take what little happiness I find and enjoy it, like it’s going to be the last bit of happiness I’ll ever find. If there is anything I’ve learned recently, you’ve got to enjoy all of life’s little blessings, because they end all too quickly sometimes—even before we’re ready for them to end. Life is not mere chances or luck, everything that happens, well it happens for a reason; it’s all part of a bigger picture which is beyond our understanding. So, I could sit here and tally up all the negatives, which would high; but what a waste of time. I say, take those negatives and find the adventure in there, because there is sure to be some crazy stories that when looking back will leave you with a huge smile. It makes for a better story and journey...peace and love always <3
